1 month~~~

today is the first month mark of the start of my uni life. this four weeks alot happens to me.. being far away from home makes me thinks alot too...

life are hetic sometimes with classes from morning str8 till evening... i accually envys those who dun have 8am classes... cuz i have it every single day... =(

classes some are fun and just refreshing back wat we learned before... but some i can just vomit blood cuz i dunno wat the lect is talking about... lucky dat i have coursemates to accually explain it for me.

wat can i say about my uni life??? i felt more comfortable and happier when i am in the faculty!!! bad thing accually.. cuz i spend more time in hostel... =(

my roommate was ok.. just we dun talk much... havent reach the umph of talking alot... o shud i say i cant accually be very close with in relationship friends.. unless we were fren before the opposite gender relantionship starts... my other roommate is a indian senior.. dun talk much too.. cuz she is always not in room and whenever she is in room, she is sleeping.. haix... hope dis condition will change.. i dun wan to be like the room is just a place for us to sleep.. dat will be very very bad...

hostel accually have alot of activities.. but i cant push myself to know new frens... i am like a weirdo.. i sortta warm up very very slow and i need ppl to approach me first. I HATE MYSELF seriously.... most of the chinese here have their gangs and best fren already. and its quite weird for me to accually join into their gang?? i hope this changes very soon too... hope i can know more ppl in the coming programmes and projects.. i dun wan to stay in the room all the time.. =((
u all maybe curious... didnt i meet frens i can talk to?? YES... i have... we are in the same faculty... i know her during the orientation... very outgoing girl... TOO BAD... she doesnt stay in hostel anymore... shoot me please....

argh!!!! i dun like dis type of uni life... y do i have to be so unsporting whenever i am in a new environment... i really really really hope all this bad thing changes all at once.... bla bla bla bla... i will take the blame for everything dat happen... i have to admit dat i was in a comfort zone all this while and this is the first time i leave that zone... meeting new ppl, making new frens... hope i can find frens who can joke wif me like during ns time... keeping my fingers crossed... hope to have some good news when i come back here soon....

p/s: i am finally 20!!! one thing i forgot to do on dat day... i wanna wish myself a happy belated birthday... all the best to me... <3<3<3

NEW BLOG!!!

haha... nth new accually.. just some lil changes here n dere... realised that the old template was a bit too long ago... time to have a brand new days and cherish the past... 6 more months before i gotta bid farewell to the teenage years.... the years of many ups and down... success n failures... happy n sad days... enjoyable n boring...

well... its time for me to get ready for the days to come... o should i be more specific - uni days... done my uni application things... finally!!! now will be time to have my fingers crossed... after all that i had been through i accually no longer cares which uni i get into as long as i got my placement... found out that i was in my comfort zone for too long and need to get out from it urgently... i need to have a taste of a new life since everyone around me is no longer the same person i knew... i need to change too!!! get some new friends.. new aim in life... i dun wanna stay the same for the rest of my life... just like i changed my dreams of prusuing chemical engineering which i may have a very hard time now if i stayed on... realised that we have to look at life from different prospect to get a thorough idea of it... its ourself that drive our life along n not life itself... if we wanna take a right, life cant make us turn left. own desire rules us... therefore what i want in life is the key to the doors opening to my future. well, mayb we may come to some part where we cant have own control of our life BUT looking at a bright side, mayb life has a better planning for us... but not all the time...

for now i just hope to get wat i dreamed of... accepted to the uni i wanted and lead a brand new life away from home... away from my comfort zone.... but still deep in my heart i am still the old me... still daddy n mummy's lil girl.... still the big bossy sis to my sibilings... still the me my friends know... cheers everyone... hope u guys too will achieve wat ur dreams are.... remember to DREAM BIG!!!! and have the birghtest future u can have... =)

just feel like blogging

haha... the tittle says it all...
the feeling just came... wanna compose sth but too long for fb status... haha...
hmm... some updates of my life....
stpm is so so so a past tense in my life...
currently working.. old place.. almost one month le and i just cant wait to get out from dere.. regret of promising the boss to work for 2 months.. haix... dunno y.. dis time work half day and i am dere as a teacher assistant nia compared to 2 yrs ago but the feeling is just not the same anymore... i dunno y... because of the kids?? or my working patners... kids: some i knew them since 2009 but most of them are new to me... and some are too active for me to handle... working patners: erm... 2 teachers are same and the maid is still dere... but feeling quite stressed out if i patner one of the teacher... more comfortable with the new teachers... haix.. dunno la.. i am so running away after 2 months..

and... after 2 years.... i met my ex student at a music concert by suyan's sis... and he still can remember me... haha... so happy dat night... lol..

2 more weeks to cny... the mood is starting to kick in with more and more frens coming back edi... yc session will increase tremendously i guess... wahaha... dis is the life in kt.. we only get life when ppl return... weird.. haha....

what i have next in my life??? more part time job i guess since uni will not start till september... i am so gonna look for a job i will be excited to get to work everyday... haha..

dats all... tata~~~~ XD

final countdown!!!!! 33 days!!!!!

argh!!! almost 30 more days to judgement day!!!
fuel up please!!!!!!! i dont wish to screw my own future.....
kept telling myself.... to study hard... real hard... real real real hard.... if i dun wish to continue staying in east coast.... no umt... no umk nor ump.....
dis few weeks we are flooded with PAPERSSSSSSS!!!!!! kindda bored with it but, hey i can do it.... i overcame these days thrice le.... dis last one has no different!!! i know it!!!!
i wonder how come some of my classmates can study and enjoy at the same time but their results were like they studied the hell out of them.... the only conclusion i came to was they got the BRAINS.... and i dont... how sad... :(

argh... enuf of the spilling out of pressure.... back to my chemistry.... haix haix haix....

good luck everyone!!!! 2 more months and then we can play our hearts out!!!! fighting!!!! ~~~~~

p/s: my post on my bd is still in draft.... haix... will find some time to finish the late late post.... hehe... ^^

Of 25th September

i am 19~~~ old jorr.... haix.... by next year i am no longer teenager... how sad... =(

~~ 25th September 2010~~~
happy birthday to myself and my *dead* blog... haha... XD

as the time creeps into the early seconds of this not much awaited saturday (i dunno why i am not in mood to grow old), i can hear a few continuous beeping sound from my phone and the small red notification on facebook kept poping out... its just so warm to have friends who remembered your birthday and it just get me in the mood... i slept at around 2 dat night i think... (p/s: my sibling even waited till just before i close my eyes to sing me a birthday song... thanks... love ya all... muah.. XD)
the next day, i spend half the day at home, replying wishes which i appreciate a lot... since its my lunar birthday too dat day, mum specially made egg mi suah for lunch for me... it was real nice!! i feel the warmth in the dish... thanks mum... heart u lots... <3< 3<3.....
after chemistry tuition, we head to old town.. i tot it would only be few of us but many turn out... its a pleasant surprise...
after dinner, we head to kg. cina. watched performance for the mid autumn festival and the opening of tang bin dao... then, we had a boat ride around sungai trg... haha... as the night gets deeper, a few of us left went for tea at town city b4 heading home.. reached home bout 11.30pm and utilised the last half an hour of free calls with pei.. then sis suprised me with a cake just b4 the clock struck 12.. the final suprise for the day... its just so sweet... just like d cake... haha... then continued to reply fb wishes till it enter the next day when i am 19 and a day old...

i am very grateful for all the wishes... how i hope that i can hug them all... of course for the same sex only... haha... anyways... thx guys... u all just made my day and i will truly remember dis special day as long as it is saved in dis blog... hehe... XD

p/s: omg, i forgot to post dis up and its almost 4 months since then... haha.. but its ok.. as long as i did it.. =) (22 jan 2011)

am back!!!!!! ^^

last update.... 4 months ago!!!! o i rather prefer to say LAST YEAR!!!! haha.... kindda suprised to see on my fren's blog dat my last post was 4 months ago.... i really stopped blogging... i could say dat... sorry for keeping u waiting... =)

well... alot did happen dis year... happy, sad, disappointed, excited, tired, stress.... and lots more... u name it.... but!!! wat had gone, be gone... forget all the unhappy moments... hope dat it will not haunt me anymore!!! no more!!! i learned my lesson!!!

now.. i am experiencing stress and tired.... mid term exams are almost done... another last paper left... my fav... so seriously i am now relaxing myself dy.... dun worry.. i promise to get myself rolling after i have enough rest after the mid term hols... dat time is the most critical time... i know dat well.... gotta brush up my physics and chem... and also not to neglect pa and maths... seriously.. dis is the first time i dun have any confidence in any if the 4 subjects... and dis mid term makes me think back do i really wanna study chem engineering especially now dat my chem is really really weak.... will think it over again after the exams....

as for tired.... i really look forward for sis return... been home alone for the past 2 weeks... and i will only be over next week.. argh... i wish i could let go of everything and have a good night sleep.. i cant wait... i miss mum and dad badly..... its kindda weird not having them around since i am already used to tag around them all the time... i now know how my frens feel of home sick.. but i am not the case... i am having parents sick... haha..... next week come faster!!! hols come faster!!!! hehe... ^^

k la... gtg for now... got ironing job waiting... haix... =S

2009 recaps + 2010 resolutions...

hmm.. blogging is something i havent did for a long time... the blame goes to my lazy fingers and rusting brain... hehe... ^^

ok... guess dis will be my last post for the year 2009...
let do some memories recall before the curtain fall to end the year... (p/s: i really hope 2010 dun come.. 2009 is the best year i ever had.. )

hmm... 2009 is the most most memorable, adventurous, emo, happy, ..... etc year for me...
since january, o shall i say end of 2008, i was in honey mood condition... after spm... enjoy la... driving lessons, sis came home, shopping.... and then when i passed my car test, its cny, another round of enjoying... fattening myself of course.. =) then.. after rottening at home for a few weeks, i started another new part of my life, my first career... hmm.. a.. it reminds me of the kids.. haha... they should have changed a lot, even my cousin changed a lot.. talkative now.. haix.. haha...

hmm... after dat.. spm results... my result sucks... ruin my own future... haix...
after all the application things done, i head to fulfill my part for the country ( can i say it like dat? haha... )

attended national service, it opened up another door of my soul... being there, stranded in a forest(its really far fromt he main road la.. but i miss the path going into the village la.. long journey to go back to camp after outing which means more air cond.. haha..
enjoyed my time dere... refused to leave even i had de chance.. better choice for me.. haha... well.. ns is a great part of my life.. i just couldn't write more.. writer's block... it always be in my mind.. forever and ever and ever....
after 3 months of national service, time to bid farewell to all my new frens.... then begin another chapter of my life....

sixth form!!!
omg.. dis is the road dat never crossed my mind before... but well.. since i have the so 'good' results... have to accept it lo.... study life??? dun mention it... i have another year to go in dis be'love'ed schoold of ours... haix.... tough year ahead lo... but still i have to be grateful.. since staying in kt means homecooked meal.. i dun have to worry bout spending.. money.. and form 6 dun have the so called assignments.. we only have homeworks which i dun remember we need it pass it up... so... its 50-50 lo... since i crave to experience outstation study life ma.... but i know i will get the chance after stpm de... chill... ~~
hmm... been in school since june... after half a year leaving books, pens and most of all uniform and exams!!!! well... 5 months passed... i still survive la... now i just need another 11 more months and i will 100% confirm leave school.. =)
hmm... dats all of my 2009 life ba... new life, new experience, new me?? ehems...

2more days to 2010... my re4solutions for the brand new year??? hmm... study come first... then keep fit.. omg.. i really need to go back to the weight i achieved when i finish ns... i missed it la... =), spend more time doing beneficial things.. less tv, less sleep, lss internet...
p/s: same every year... did i achieve it??? no... hahas....

k la.. signing off...
sue phing
~hoping 2010 comes in a slower mode...

09.10.09

phuuuuuuuuuu....... blow dust.... dusting~~~~~~~~~~~~.... haha... my blog is full of dust...

updates!!!!
hmm... since the last post.... many things happen....
raya hols!!! wohoo.... finally... refreshments.....
spend the ferz few days lying around at home... miss being couch potato.... XD
then suyan birthday!!!! we surprised her!!! wahaha.... my ferz surprise party which go as planed... XD... then hang out later dat day.... i found out my new hang out place.... beach!!! i love beach.... wohoo...
then my bd.... finally met up with pei... went to mcd... unplaned... XD.. chit..... chat..... sampat sampat la... so guai sei long no meet lo... hahax..... then... its school again.... haix.... sienzz....
well i pontenged the ferz time of the year... well i had fever the day b4 ma... so since dat day got too many free preiods le, may as well stay home and get more rest till i am fully recovered.... hmm... its so so so long since i stayed home alone... enjoyed waking up late, but then bored bored bored... miss those in school pulok... haix.... and as a memory, dis day... (29-09-09), i present u.... jing2 tan... coutersy of geng siang and seng fei.... wahahax....
p.s: i hope u dun read dis in acess room o i will be dead... muahaha....
hmm... then.... the weekend.... i drove!!! i know.. nth special... but i drove alone... hmm... i think i never drove alone b4 except inside bitara la.... haha.... so i guess its a good start from now.... i need practice.... guess where i drove to??? beach!!! told ya.. my new hangout spot... XD.. had some great time with the sea breeze.... refreshing indeed.....
then... muet speaking test... hmm... dats dis week dy??? wow... dats fast.... no comment on the test.. i did my best dy.... now it depends on the 3 remaining papers.... i really reallly really really wish i dun have to retake it lo.. hmm... dat will be my late bd wish.... =)

hmm... not forgeting.... my 18th birthday!!! oh gosh... i am already 18 and 2 weeks old... still young... haha.... XD
dis year birthday was one memorable one... not with exams.... i m bored of it dy... ferz time no exams round the corner... haha.... had frens... cake... family dinner at ming star... yummy.. XD... presents from family and frens...~~~ its indeed fun.... i will remember all dat.... and my wish for the legal day??? hmm.... get matured.... accept reality dat i am really in form 6 dy... no way out except stpm and i have to strive my very very very very best to shine with it... get work out... i am gaining weight.. =( jogging anyone??? rain go away la.... hmm... and then.... i really should learn to manage my life well.... studies, fun, fren... all not balance lo.... i dun keep in touch with most of my fren much.... haix..... i guess i really need a big big makeover lo... help!!!!

hmmm..... guess all the dust have been cleared for the moment.... and nowits time for.... it get dusty again... muahaha.... see u sometime in next month i hope... tata... =)

~~untittled~~

hmm.. sorry from being lost frm the blog world.. definitely no cyber world... i cant life w/o internet acess... XD... well... lack of updates in blog?? haiya.. small matter la.. now ppl no heng write blog liao ma... look at my blog roll... how many are updated everyday?? none?? of course la.. no everyone so free blog everyday de ma... hahax... no big matter no blog lo... XD

hmm.. back to the point.... its september oledi..... haiya forget post on 09.09.09.... btw... happy 17th bday nat... wishing u all the luck... XD

well... school life is hetic... just finish my ferz exam after 9 months of no exam life... haix... cant get the atmosphere yet i think... i did quite bad.... hope my average can reach 1.0 i can oledi tou xiao liao la... haix... well... after dis tov, final yr exam is coming too... oct o nov i guess... then muet.. shit.. i never practiced group speaking b4... dat mama la... neglected me... i need attention la... but not too much.. can help me score band 5 o 6 can dy... hahax... i really dunno wats into me.... i really dun like the current school life... hetic, boring, stress, no frens can ki siao... haix.... i really wan to go back to the past life... secondary school life.. not pra u.... i need a big group of frens.. frens are my life... yum cha, pak gua, ponteng... damn.. missed it so much... spm pun play kao kao nia... dats call life.. =)

well... cant go back to scondary school, at least oso can go back to national service days gua..... i can endure waking up at 5.30 la... got them sure can de... wa.. sudd so miss the dorm gurls... 3 months le lu we havent met each other... 3rd batch oso ending le... imagine we wake up to each other for 3 months.. and now we dun see each other for three months le.. haix.. wonder hows everyone... i just couldn't make the effort to contact them... =( national service life.... made u tired like shit.... bored to death in the class... but still better la.. no exams ma.... and... healthy lifestyle u knw... who will wake up so damn early to do pt?? only ns got la... who will go for riadah everyday?? only ns trainee.... who will go to sleep like a log b4 11pm (esp for midnite ghost like me)?? only during ns time la.... and most important where can u get free food and services everyday and still get allowance every month?? see??? ns can even help me put off weight la... not like now... after school come home stayed indoors till the next morn again... sleep, eat , internet, tv.... bo pui pun ge la.... haix.... i am willing to stay in ns camp as long as i can la... =(
p/s: addition: who will bo dai bo chi go ppl village collect rubbish?? sendiri de hse oso like rubbish dump.. too free a?? haha.... but i miss miss miss community service...

owei.. here i go again comparing current life with ns life.... no use le la... cnt go back le la... it will only stay in my memory.... guess it will take another one year to really take dis off my mind.. just like the previous case... i am glad to say dat i had finally overcome it.... no more hard feelings.. let it be.... let it be.. let it be.... gosh it took me one yr to realise me dat i am no longer dere... guess same thing will happen for ns?? 3 down, 9 more to go.... =/

well... now... its september le... its the month full of bufdays!!! almost every week... hahax... and... and... the plus point is.. raya hols... all of them r coming back frm every inch of msia... wahaha... so so so so happy... finally i can feel kt is back alive agian... hehex... ^^...
and not not not not to 4get.... the day i get legalised(dis yr i found 2 同年同月同日born de fren le.. one frm ns, one frm skul... but not close fren.. XD).... hmm.... legal??so am i illegal now?? :/ btw, legal sounds weird to me.... i dun drink, i dun smoke, i never go clubing... legal for wat??? i am still under my parents wings.... :p... so legal o not... i dun care... i am gonna enjoy the day... u dun turn 18 everyday u knw... XD hmm... stayover anyone?? i wan 2 sampat frm nite to morning.. XD... but where?? whose hse is empty worr... so.. i think its a no.. =(

hopes from me??? hmm... wat i wish to achieve in my 18th yr of life?? well.... i have so so so so so much plannings.... but still i know STPM will be dere to block my way... so i guess i wont be enjoying much till i am 19++ lo.... haix... =(

but stillll..... i will be here again on my big day.... i will list out my wishes... my hopes.. my dreamsss for the year... i dun care they will come true o not... =) so stay tuned ya... we will b back... hehex... XD


~enjoying the last week+ of being 17~~

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no mood to think of the tittle... =(
hmm.. look at the calender!!! august is almost ending le la... how many months more till 2010?? why time flies so fast?? spm was just like yesterday la.... haix... still no mood to study though exam is next week le... i still cannot accept the fact dat i have to settle for sixth form.. and i have to go thru the days with books, extra classes, uniforms, the toughest exam - STPM for the next 16 months.. before i really really really leave secondary school and dis time for real... haix....

ignore my emoness about time... =(

hmm... long time no update le horr... XD

k la.. some continuation with the main idea of the post... (hahax.. MUET zhong du tai shen)... thesis statement... brainstorming.... hmmm.... wonder correct de ma... if wrong and i get band 4 below come out i blow her hse down and insist for my band 5 she promised me... :p

ok ok... back to the main idea.... should sum up my life for the past 7 months le la... just before the year end before u could breath....
~lets go month by month~~ great chance for me to retrieve my life which has pass by....

january: hmm... busy with my drving lesson and driving exam till cny... then its enjoy la... XD
february: hmm... wasted half the month in doing nth.... and next i got myself a job i never expected....
march: hmm... month of ups and downs.... result... haix.... then it was ns... home leaving... was sad lur...
april: enjoy enjoy enjoy but with some homesick still.... healthy life... XD
may: still enjoying... the best days of my life.... muahaha... loves~~~ got break.. home and back to camp again... registered for 6th form and din know dat i missed tarc last intake... haix... =(
june: last week in ns... sad sad... sob sob.... T_T then another trip to kb... hehex.. fun... ^^then its back to school dy.... totally not in mood.... haix... mong cha cha.. one month pass le....
july: another mong cha cha month... wake up go school, study, sleep, eat, sleep... boring rutin.. haix... but st least theres sth dat lighten up my days... XD
august: school was as usual... more activities... more hetic life... enjoyed the fun doing work together.... but still staying together with the same heart is hard... really lots of ups and downs... haix... wat to do... this is life.. gotta accept it...

well... dats quite a simple sum up of my life la... hmm... guess dis would be the hardest yr for me lo... too many ups and downs.... ~~~rejection.. dejection... failure... ~~~ new frens.. new life... new aim of life... special small things that happens.. light up my days... ^^ i gotta say dat i love... and i hate my life now....

well as for the following months.... exams... exams... exam... haix.... cant wait till my legal day.. hahax.. one more month to go.... but guess no special celebration la.... i am not dat high yet.. =P
then.... november hols!!! i wan go kl... but please h1n1 pls pls pls leave msia la... sien doh....

till then ~winks~

afraid.....

suddenly... all dis feeling come to me.... i am so afraid... so so afraid that i will lose contact with all my frens... is it my fault??? am i too busy?? i ask myself when is the last time i msn with my buddies?? when is the last time we had a long and happy chat?? of course this excludes the sixth forms ones.... we see each other almost everyday.... but there's only 28 of us la.... =(

omg.... pls pls pls... i dun really wan dis to happen.... should i put in more effort?? but what if i am disturbing them?? argh... when really is the right time?? why are we having diff weekends and diff hols.... haix.... really miss the days we see each other in school everyday, having tuiion classes together.... see each other faces till sien, till ma mu and cn even sense every change in them.... argh!!! i miss everyone so so so much.... wan see u all le... end of september is too too too long to go...... haix.... i wanna yum cha together... gossiping.. bomb each other.. having pure fun and forget all the tension we are having... back to the same old life.... haix... the more i think, the more i regret missing the tarc intakes... if not i will be in kl le la... haix..... ;-(

well... dis is the fact of life i think... we meet, we part, and in the end we forget each other as we meet new ones.... i have gotta learn to accept it.....

p/s: finally.... after a few months of wanna buy, wanna buy.... i finally got the new hotlink youth club pack.... gonna change my number either tomorrow or day after dat which depends on my credit in the old number..... well... i think its so long to my 012-9378763 la... hmm.... the good old number(since 2003 if i am not mistaken).. but i guess hotlink doesnt support ppl to stay long to old numbers cuz better package just kept coming out... hahax.... k la.. will sms the new number when i start to use it ya... XD...

to all: keep in touch ya!!! miss ya.... frens 4ever!!! =)

new born coussie!!! XD

photos updates.... sorry for the late and lack of updates... been quite busy and lazy.... =)

and addition to the tay's family!!!! born on july 20th 2009.... now one month plus le lol.. tay zhi sheng.... hahax... ko ko finally have di di dy.... =P